Monday, November 8, 2010
I have thought so many times in the last few months that I am so glad I am here.
And, indeed, I am.
This is the place I want to be and quite honestly I can't see myself living anywhere else right now.
But at the same time, it is so painful.
I just went on facebook and now I am bawling like a baby.
I miss my friends.
I miss my family.
I really miss seeing my kids with their friends.
I hate seeing how everyone is growing up and we are not a part of it (in the physical proximity sense).
I just saw the coolest picture of my nephew throwing a ball.
I miss my nephews and their antics.
I miss all the cousins being together.
I miss my sister-in-law and laughing with her.
I saw all of Maddy's friends all together,
all looking so grown up,
and I'm so sad that she is not there with them.
I saw one of my bestest friends and her kids playing in the leaves.
I miss the fall.
I miss the leaves.
But I really miss seeing those kids
and their wonderful momma.
I saw my brother in law.
I enjoy him so much.
I want to goof around with him.
Yet in all this, I know we are supposed to be here.
I want to be here.
But why can't we be there too?