And what is God doing in my life through this?
The verses to go with this writing are 1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." and 1 Thessalonians 5:18 "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." Humble myself. Give thanks in all circumstances. There we go. As backward as it may appear, those were my issues. Most people don't have a problem thanking God for material blessings - but I do. Most people don't have pride over having more, but I do. They are serious issues for me.
Basically, I felt (and feel) downright embarassed about owning this house. It is big - although not huge, but even the appearance of it is bigger than the inside. From the outside it looks monstrous. It says "I'm a huge house" even though the inside space, while very nice, isn't crazy. And that is my issue in many ways - how do I appear on the outside - because that is what people see. My pride of appearances. My pride of not looking godly because I have a nice house. Dumb!